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[ 10/28/06
at 12:38pm]
Julia Barlow's Facebook profile
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[ 07/23/06
at 5:56pm]
Eat More Kale!
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[ 07/23/06
at 4:19pm]
Falcon Ridge Folk Festival was awesome, as always.
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[ 07/15/06
at 1:32am]
how do you block the thought of death out of your mind?
-panic attacks
-crying myself to sleep
-telling myself/the world that it's not fucking fair
-heart beat gets faster like a fucked up adrenaline rush
-wornsening insomnia

i don't know what else to say. I feel so fucked up right now.
Am i the only one reacting this way?
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[ 07/10/06
at 12:00am]
livejournal is on the verge of death
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[ 07/02/06
at 12:09pm]
'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com
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[ 06/29/06
at 6:43pm]
Here's what's new --
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[ 06/15/06
at 10:50pm]
The Summer Crew 2006

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[ 06/13/06
at 4:48pm]
Rockin' my new YouthAIDS necklaceCollapse )
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[ 06/07/06
at 3:05pm]
The Senate voted 49 to 48 today to defeat the discriminatory Federal Marriage Amendment, a measure that would have denied marriage to same-sex couples and seriously threatened civil unions and domestic partnerships.

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I'm happy, but that's way too fucking close for my liking. Scares the shit out of me.

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[ 06/05/06
at 9:26pm]
I hate george w. bush
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[ 05/28/06
at 7:14pm]
Tagged by: itendswithafall

Once you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I shower before and after I go to the gym
2. I can't go out of my house unless i've put on both spray deoderant, and stick deoderant
3. Every time i like a girl, I seek out her friendship, then i create random drama that sometimes breaks up the friendship.
4. When i'm nervous, i take out my cell phone and pretend i'm texting someone
5. When someone else starts cracking their fingers or their neck, I make it into a competition and try to crack mine louder.
6. (and on itendswithafall's topic of weird food mixtures): I mix cream cheese with pasta sometimes.

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[ 05/17/06
at 6:52pm]
Mom, Me, Dad
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PROMM PICSS!!Collapse )
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[ 05/15/06
at 5:39pm]
if you find yourself without me
c'mon, find yourself without me
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[ 05/10/06
at 9:17pm]
I hate when I get pissed at my parents and they just fucking laugh in my face.
The more they laugh, the more I want to fucking revert back to old habits that will just fuck up every aspect of my life.
Scars will make my boss not like me as much..maybe even fire me because i work with kids. Scars will make my friends think i want attention, when all I really want is somewhere to put my anger. Scars will make my mom cry again. It will increase therapy sessions which will decrease the money in our wallets and money for college. (no matter how much i dislike my parents, i'm still concerned with their financial situation.) I've been wanting to do it so bad lately. For no reason I can think of, I've been pushing away close friends. When it came to one of my closest friends, I quickly realized what the fuck i had been doing, and fixed whatever misunderstanding as soon as possible. Other friends, I just show no affection towards anymore. And I don't want to...but it bothers me that it still bothers them. I don't even know what went wrong, I just know I don't want to be around some of these people anymore. I think one of the reasons i push people away is that I think they don't like me anymore. I'm paranoid that everyone is slowly backing away from me. And I know it's just paranoia. But I can't help it. I guess it's a mix between Low self-esteem, lack of confidence, and paranoia.

I promised three people that I'd bring them to College Night at West Point tomorrow night...
And my mom just told me I can only bring two. (i'm bringing Paula and Judy)
But i also offered jess a ride. I reallly hope she can't go..because i feel like shit for inviting her and now I have to tell her we can't take her. It shows that i'm not a dependable person. Which does not get me on her good side at all...fuckkkk.

Oh, and not to be even more depressing, but the lip ring is gone. I had to take it out for work, and I can't get it back in...now it's gone forever!
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[ 05/04/06
at 5:43pm]
i see me you and julio down by the schoolyard!
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[ 05/01/06
at 9:53pm]
I just made my first two fire calls tonight!!!!!
well the first was a car accident on 17.
By the time we got there, everything was under control, so no one even got out of the truck.
then we went back to the firehouse, and discussed what drill would consist of tonight. (we have drill every monday night) So me, Pat Kasch, Justin Romer, Justin Wright, and Brendan O'Grady went to pine tree in the fire truck to work on hydrant stuff.
And when we were there, we got a fire" call from KJ.
so we went, and I got to help with the fire and stuff -- but all these fucking little KJ kids were laughing at us. They're so ungrateful! I don't understand. Later, all the junior members said they're alwys like that when we come.

Anyway. I like being a firefighter to far :)
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[ 04/29/06
at 4:51pm]
by the way -- the last post was pictures of the table i painted in 4 hours thursday night for the MW Art Show.
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[ 04/28/06
at 10:28pm]
My pride and joy:
Is under the cut. My parents bought it for 100 dollars at the art auction!Collapse )
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[ 04/19/06
at 12:12am]
I had a dream that I was about to be hanged.
At first, I asked the person in charge if i was going to die quickly -- just to make sure my neck would crack and i'd die so i didn't have to suffocate and struggle...
Then I realized that i was going to fucking die and it really didn't matter how it happened. So i started to freak out because death is my worst fear. I was yelling that i wanted a lawyer because i thought having one would keep me alive.

I don't know what happened after that...I just know i didn't die. But i remember how scared i was.
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